Man is the only creature who refuses to be what he is.
It’s been a while, but this is a fab way to get acquainted again with an old friend.
Despite one of my largest fears being MS leaving me nothing but a consciousness trapped within a paralyzed flesh cage, I’m still not using my body as much as I can while I still am definitely able. Of course I have the off days where the thought (and even act) of leaving my bed is too painful to bear, but on the days I’m free of that and anything else, still I choose to confine myself in my room, minus the odd walk around the surroundings. It’s been a mental battle for a long time, one could draw conclusions to laziness from my actions but on the inside somewhere I still hold onto the illogical, possibly steeped in OCD intruding thought/s that I should save all my movement for a time it matters because just maybe if I employ the use of these strands of sinew too often and too carelessly they’ll wear down and snap a lot more prematurely than they could have. I had someone tell me recently I shouldn’t see my condition as indicative of a death sentence, and as true as it may be, I don’t want to hear that shit. Just because I mightn’t explicitly die through direct correlation with disease doesn’t mean it’s not shaping up the rest of my time to be possibly worse than death. Big assumptions to make, but for having the first attack so unnaturally early in life and the constant state of confusion the lesions on my brain seem to be entrapped in between all their waxing and waning just enough to keep my doctors confused, as a psychologist once wrote on my referral sheet; prognosis is poor.
The belief in a supernatural source of evil is not necessary; men alone are quite capable of every wickedness.
James Ferraro - Google Poesies
There is a growing migraine behind my right eye and it’s been so for over a week. When the slightest event, word, reaction rubs me the wrong way I get involuntarily vision spasms. I should probably go back to sleep even though I’ve been up less than 8 hours.
Joanna Newsom - Peach, Plum, Pear.
Now it’s done
Watch it go
And you’ve changed, some
Water run from the snow
have a nice life - i don’t love // deathconsciousness
i don’t wanna live like this any more
i don’t wanna live at all
You once said Death is nature’s way of saying “your table’s ready.” We wish we could’ve waited with you a little longer.
As a child, I was pretty lonely. Not totally, but it was there, and such people as Robin Williams (especially him, actually) made it okay. He was a brilliant man and even though it’s been years since I’ve seen him in action, I still find myself crying over his death. I made the resolve back then as a little one to never live to see the day my idols died, but it’s too late. Rest well, Mr. Williams. I don’t know what comes after a person shuffles off the mortal coil, but I hope whatever it is, that it takes you softly and sweetly as deserved.
Made out of (mostly) found objects for my beautiful Angerine's birthday today! The party starts around now so here's to hoping she's not just wasting time on tumblr and ends up viewing it before I can present it in person.
(No snails were harmed in the making of this gift; I found the shell already hollowed out.)
the only way to delete my existence off the internet is to go back in time and deny me internet access in the first place Im in too deep theres nothing i can do
no love deep web
first i was like huh what willow smith
then i was like hUH WHAT WILLOW sMITH?!?!?!??
a lot has happened since whip my hair and its for the better bUT SHE IS LIKE 13 AND COOLER THAN ME SO LIKE?????????????????????
Look at it like this: no human would ever keep your history in such a way for your own benefit. It’s a dirt file to be brought up whenever they feel like it. They already keep track of where you are and who you talk to through phone usage, but now they want to know more - your thoughts, what you do, what you keep yourself entertained with when you aren’t mobile.
My father in response to the governments plan to write and enact legislation forcing ISPs and mobile service providers to store ‘metadata’ on all Australian citizens for at least two years— under the safety blanket that is ‘anti-terrorism procedure’.